Why on earth would I wait until we’re three weeks into the year before bothering to update my blog? Well, the year has started with an enormous amount of sadness and pain, and while part of me really wants to just write and write and write about it, I have to respect the feelings of my family and assume they wouldn’t want me broadcasting our hurt online.
In the first week of this year we lost a much-adored family member. I don’t feel I should go into details, for the reason explained above, except to say that it was sudden and therefore no one was prepared to deal with the grief that followed.
And so I haven’t written anything here. I knew I couldn’t just pretend everything is fine (it’s not), but I also didn’t know how to put things into words. I still don’t think I know how to, and even now as I type I am aware I’m not doing a very good job, but I just wanted to let you know why I’ve been absent, and then I just want to carry on.
Thank you for being patient with me (you always are) and I promise I’ll be back soon. And I’ll even share a bump photo with you so you can see just how
fat full of baby I’m getting.